onlyindreams137

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 19:03:07 GMT

Ok, so school was school. We only had 2 1/2 days of school this week!! Wednesday me, kerry, steph, andrea, allyson, mal, and laura went back to laura's house and ordered food from there. I had to leave early because of physical therapy. Wednesday night we went to pep rally at the highschool and then went back to allyson's house. I was accidently table topped..laura pushed me and i didnt realize that ker and mal were sitting on the floor doing some puzzle and i smashed my head into the couch...it was just a little bit painful, lol. So my mom picked me up at 11. Thursday was the Thanksgiving day football game...YEAH VERONA, WAY TO KICK CEDAR GROVE'S ASS!!! 14-0. I went to my aunt's house at 3:30 and then went home at 10..my sister left early because she had bball this morning but she ended up having a few people over until 11. So this morning i had to get my MRI and they had to inject dye into my shoulder and it basically pushed against the joint and so i can barely move my shoulder now. I went to basketball after but i cant play yet. I canceled my physical therapy for today because my arm is way too sore. Right now i am watching Shrek 2..funny movie..ok well thats all

Bye

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 19:50:26 GMT

Ok so friday night i was going to go the brendan's but i had rented elf and i fell asleep so i didnt do that.

Last night i went to kerry's house because she was watching her brother so me, mal, and laura were sleeping over. She had a mini party..it was really funny. Ker's cousin got us stuff. Me, allyson, and ker's brother were like the only ones sober. I do have to admit it is fun being the sober one and watching everyone drink. Well anyway...someone told their parents they were going to kerry's house and their mom told mrs fitz becuase they were at the same place. Mrs fitz called saying that she has reason to believe ker was having a party and then her mom called back saying her dad was going to come home for some soda that he forgot. Well kerry came running in saying her dad was coming home so everyone started to run and threw all the beer cans into the bag and just RAN. So we started to clean up but they were a little on the drunk side so me and joe had to clean up the house. We swept..washed the tables/chairs/floor/carpet because when everyone was running out of the house beer spilt. Kudos to me and joe....we got that house spotless...you would never expect that there was a party there. They didnt end up coming home early but when they got home mrs fitz was like.. "is there a party going on in here..how was the party"...oh she knows about that party..lol. Then we just sat around and talked and called brendan and kei. Everyone fell asleep except for me and kerry so we just stayed up talking and then we called brendan at 1:15ish. That was one fun/interesting conversation..right?..lol. To be honest i am surprised that we didnt wake anyone up because we were soo loud. So this morning when i woke up the first thing i saw was laura waving to me because i guess i was the second person to wake up...Then everyone else started to wake up eventually. We watched Mighty Ducks..and then talked some more..Mrs costa drove me home at 11.

I am soooo incredibly tired right now i can barely keep my eyes open...

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 22:07:07 GMT

this is going to be a short entry but i am bored so here goes:

So so physical therapy was ok i guess. I saw rob redmeirsky (i dont know how to spell his last name at all) there. I am a little sore from it today though. Today i had to take a math test after school and then i stopped by the open gym and talked with powell. I gave jaime ciamillo a ride home and then made a couple stops on the way home.

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 21:42:33 GMT

Monday..nothing happened at school. I went to Youth Group and talked to jaime ciamillo the whole time about how much she is dreading basketball tryouts. Then yesterday i had my doctor appointment to find out what is actually wrong with me. So i am not playing basketball until December 3rd i think but then i have to get an MRI and the earliest appointment is on december 6th so i dont know. So then i went back to school and had a history test which i dont think i did that bad on. Today nothing happened once again. I went to ms lanno after school to make sure i know what i am doing for our test which i have no clue when it is starting. I have to go to physical therapy for my shoulder in a little bit and then i will start my homework.

I think i am getting sick because my throat hurts...=( Uh Oh.

thats all....

ps: hey caitlin...

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 23:51:42 GMT

Ok so on friday the football game was canceled so me, kerry, andrea, caitlin, kristy, mal, and steph g went to the mall. We saw everyone from verona there, like dani, my cousin, his friends, and some other freshmen girls. Then we went to brendan's which took us 20 minutes to figure out. So when we got there kei, keith, jeff, and brendan (obviously) were all there. Jeff brought his guitar and some songs that he wrote..and keith brought a song he wrote...they were really good songs. So keith and jeff both played the guitar and they were both really good. I left at 11. Yesterday i went to Garden State Plaza with laura, andrea, caitlin, and mal. My hotty in the car next to us was almost rocking the same sunglasses as me laura...lol. I had to babysit my little cousins last night but i didnt mind..me and matthew babysat..we had to sleep over becuase they live 25-30 minutes away. We watched Marry Poppins..i love that movie. This morning i was woken up by 2 little voices saying..is she awake, i think she's awake, jacqueline are you awake..etc. At around 2:45 i went to FN with matthew, jake, and my dad. My dad was trying to do workouts with matthew to get him ready for bball and jake wanted to play "volleyball" with him.....that was my lovely weekend

Bye...

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 20:56:35 GMT

Sunday i had to work on my science project so thats what i did..then we had our relatives over for nicole's bday. I had to leave at 7:20ish to go to some Learning to Communicate thing to "learn" about it so i can help teach a 7th grade class. My cousin stole my livestrong bracelet so i will have to get that back. Monday i had school obviously and then after school we had a vball meeting. Then i went home and did homework and finished my science project. Yesterday after school i went to senor for extra help and jack ended up going also...we were there until 4 because senor doesnt really know how to teach and he had to help someone with a test or quiz. I called my mom to come pick me and jack up..while we were waiting we talked to powell and galbs about...well how bad my science project was, classes/grades, and then powell kept saying how bad our basketball team was/is (even though i wasnt playing). There was an open gym yesterday and today but i am not allowed to play for 2 weeks because of my shoulder but i am going to another doctor on tuesday. So today at school i almost fell asleep in all my morning classes....i went to the trainer during lunch to ask him a question about what the doctor told me to do..some stretch thing..and jason told me to stop doing it because it will just irritate my shoulder more...Stupid orthopedic...thats why i am going to another one. Then senor decided he was going to LOSE my quiz that we took last week...mind you he graded it in front of me after school...i got an 81 but i am going to retake it and hopefully get better since i understand now. Laura gave me a ride home...i am really bored because i dont know what to do since i dont have anything to do after school for 2 1/2 weeks since i cant play basketball....

WHY IS IT SO COLD ALREADY.....HEAT!!! I NEED HEAT!!!

hats all...<3

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 05:07:21 GMT

Wow, weird night. Well today we went to the football game..me, ker, her brother (joe), laura, andrea, steph, and allyson. Kerry was watching her brother so he had to come with us. Verona won 41-0..Good job guys. After the game we walked to verona pizza. Then me, laura, ker, and joe walked back to ker's house. We tried to figure out some plans but got nothing accomplished so me and laura left. We walked home but my sister picked me up when i was like a block away from my house. Tonite we went to caitlin's...brendan and kei went also but they couldn't stay long because they werent supposed to be there. They wouldnt tell us what their plan was so everyone kept trying to get it out of them. when they left they had to hop over a fence..haha. EVEN AFTER THEY LEFT PEOPLE STILL KEPT TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE PLAN!!! i have to admit it kept us occupied because they were giving us clues. We never did figure it out anyway. So kerry couldnt find her shoes when we had to go so she left without them..her mom is going to think she was drunk, oh well. SO that was my night...

g'night

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 18:37:53 GMT

I AM: Jacqueline Iannucci
I WANT: love
I HAVE: amazing friends
I WISH: i was stronger inside
I HATE: drama
I MISS: the olod days
I FEAR: spiders
I HEAR: music
I SEARCH: ?
I WONDER: everything
I REGRET: nothing
I ALWAYS: forgeting things. lol
I DANCE: at parties, but thats like it
I CRY: more than i should
I AM NOT ALWAYS: all there in the head
I WRITE: i dont really write....
I WON: !
I LOST: everything i ever believed in...
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: to do better in school (spanish and histore to be exact)
I SHOULD: try harder
MY FATHER THINKS I AM: ......dont know
MY MOTHER THINKS I AM: ......dont know
MAKES ME HAPPY: my friends, music
UPSETS ME: being alone
THE PRETTIEST FEMALE YOU KNOW: idk.. i know a lot of pretty people
THE PRETTIEST MALE YOU KNOW: i shall not make a list lol
THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: hm..thats a tough one
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: me, wein,.....
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: once again, i shall not list them.
YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: kerry, and brendan....basically all my friends
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: brendan
THE LAST IMAGE/THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH: ........
YOUR BEST FEATURE: my personality
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: duh!
BEEN IN LOVE: no
WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes
HAVE ANY TATTOOS/WHERE?: none
SCREEN NAMES: hurleygrl383
SIGN: cancer
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown
EYE COLOR: brown

***********FAVORITES********

NUMBER: 3, 8
COLOR: orange
MONTH: i like them all
SONG: hmm.. depends on my mood
BAND: green day, fall out boy,...many others
RADIO STATION: z100..i dont really listen to the radio
TV SHOW: the o.c., one tree hill,real world,
SITE: dont have one
MALL: garden state plaza
HANGOUT: brendan's house..haha
ACTOR:Ashton Kutcher....soo hott!
ACTRESS: umm.. i dont have one really..
CHARACTER: ........
FOOD: ................
SEASON: summer and fall
SPORT: to play, vball.... to watch, in person, football

DRINK: iced tea
VEGGIE: cucumber

*******PREFERENCES*****

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? both
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? both lol
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: milk chocolate i guess, i dont really eat chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: vanilla

*****IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... ***

CRIED?: yes
HELPED SOMEONE? i dont know...
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?/TO WHOM: nope
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: no
MISSED AN EX?: no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? livejournal, yeah
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON?: yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes
MISSED SOMEONE?: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes

******BASICS******

THEY CALL ME: jack, jacqueline, jackie
ALSO: thats it....
SEX: female
MARITAL STATUS: single =(
OCCUPATION: student
NATIONALITY: [italian]
MOST MEMORABLE MEMORY: too many
WORST?: idk...
FIRST WORD UTTERED: no clue
FIRST BEST FRIEND: kacey...from va
COLLEGE PLANNING TO GO TO: i just hope i get into one
FUTURE RESIDENT OF: ??
WEDDING: i hope to have one
LOOKING FORWARD TO: this weekend!!
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: monday
FEELING: depressed
LISTENING TO: music
TALKING TO: laura and allyson
DOING: this survey
THINKING OF: =\
CRAVING: nothing
HATING: not having a boyfriend or any perspective boyfriends

****** L O V E *****

LOVE IS: something i have yet to expirience
FIRST LOVE: is something you can't make happen
CURRENT LOVE: my friends
LOVE OR LUST?: right now, neither
BEST LOVE SONG: .........
POSSIBLE TO BE IN LOVE W/ MORE THAN 1 PERSON AT A TIME? yes
WHEN LOVE HURTS, YOU: cry

.....i am kinda bored if you cant tell, and i cant go out today becuase i have a doc appointment at 2:15 for my shoulder. I should be doing my science project but of course i am procrastinating....

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 04:13:36 GMT

ok well i havent really updated in awhile because i thought i was going to stop my journal but i decided that i want to keep it. I am not going to explain anything that has really happened in the past so i will just do a basic update.

Last night we went to Houlihan's..it was me, wein, byrne, laura, andrea, steph ponz, and steph's friends from caldwell. Me and andrea poured wein's sprite on her...honestly i thought it was water..oops. I felt bad after we did it so i let her wear my sweatshirt while we were waiting for andrea's mom to come get us...keep in mind i was freezing my ass off because i was wearing a short sleeve shirt. Then we went to On the Run where i took Kei's hockey windbreaker because he had 2 jackets. My mom picked me and laura up at 11. Today i slept until 11:45 and then i had to go rake the leaves up. I only got about 1/4 done with the yard because there were so many leaves when it started to rain. Then i started my science project, i have to draw a plant cell and define the stuff. Me, laura, wein, and andrea went to the deli and then to Terry's but i had to leave at 4:30 to go to my vball game *WE GOING TO BAGOTA*...well we went to Bagota and we lost =(. But its ok because we played really well and they were just good. Its not going to be the same next year without the senors..I'm gonna miss you guys...we took a bunch of pictures after the game. Megan's little sister taped the OC so we went to betcher's house to watch it. We ordered pizza so me, shanflan, dani, and bri went to go pick it up. Me and shannon had like a 15 minute convo with the guy at Verona Pizza about that OC and neither of us have ever really watched it. We got to katie's house and then watched the OC. It was really good and me and shannon have now joined the clan of OC fans. well thats it...till next time.

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 00:22:39 GMT

yea so i dont really update anymore considering nothing really goes on anymore. This past weekend was pretty much a complete disaster..i mean COMPLETE disaster. This week we had a county game monday which we lost and a game today...which WE WON!!! Its about time, 3 straight losses in a row. oh well...ok so i have nothing better to do then to do these stupid survey things so:

BOLD the things that apply to you.
01. I have a cell phone.
02. I am obsessed with having my shoes match my outfit.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a boy.
05. I love wearing dangly earrings.
06. I am a gemini.
07. I love someone more than they will ever know.
08. I'm obsessed with dogs.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in a different state in the U.S. before.
12. I get an allowance.
13. I want to be in high school forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz in person.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love to read.--i wouldnt say love...try like..and it helps me fall asleep
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to the Disney Channel.
20. I am a girl.
21. I'm a worried person.
22. I'm in high school.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I don't like girls who are fake.
25. I like to swim.
26. My dreams are sometimes weird.
27. One of my best friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen Fight Club at least 45 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day
31. I've never fallen asleep during school.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. It bugs me sometimes when people are really late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love autumn.
36. I have too many clothes.
37. I like to sleep in.
38. I've failed a class in high school.
39. I'm afraid of spiders.
40. I have nail polish on my fingernails or toe nails right now.
41. I've watched the O.C.
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I like the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I have family out of state.
48. I can't wait till my birthday.
49. I love the show Rich Girls
50. I love some of my friends. i love ALL THEM
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure all the time.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I'm taking German class.
55. I have a laptop.
56. I love guys that love music.
57. I state the obvious sometimes just to reassure myself.
59. I dance randomly sometimes.
60. I'm a good singer.
61. I sometimes like cleaning my room.
62. I never get jealous.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I like doing math.
65. I cry when I see homeless people.
66. I like hugs.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.
69. I am too forgiving sometimes.
70. I have my own vehicle.
71. I love high school.
72. I have a lot of under garments.
73. I'm a daddy's girl.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color pink more than the rest.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have blue eyes.
78. I like being a passenger in vehicles at nighttime.
79. I play soccer on a team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I've never lied.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is cute. whose that?
84. I love the smell of the rain.
85. I am right handed.--mostly..i do some things lefty
86. I hate getting shots.
87. I'm a perfectionist.
88. I've gone mooning.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I love camping.
91. I like going on rides.
92. I can be quite shy.
93. I still act like a little kid sometimes.
94. There's something I will never forget, either because I can't or because I just don't want to.
95. I love looking at pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I do well in school.--in certain classes/aspects
98. I get a lot of mail.
99. I like hot tubs.
100. I like to be alone sometimes.

not like anyone really cares but for those few readers i wont be/havent been updating alot because a) nothing every happens and b) i am too busy with school and sports and school work.....

wow, i kind of started forgetting to update

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 22:43:48 GMT

OK so i havent updated in a while A) nothing exciting has really happened and B) mainly just because i havent had the time to. So here goes:

I havent done anything out of the ordenary...School, volleyball, homework, sleep and then the same ruitine over and over again. Last weekend i dont really remember what i did concidering i have a really bad memory..i know i went to my cousins soccer game like 45 minutes away but thats all i remember. This weekend i helped my aunt with my cousins' birthday parties. They turned 5 and they had seperate parties..one friday at 7 and the other saturday at 10:30. So i was there friday night and then saturday morning into night..she had the family party on saturday night. So me and my cousins (matthew and adam) went to SamGoody..i got the new Green Day cd and i do recommend it. Today i did some homework and then went to the football game..we had to pay 3 bucks to get in to fix the mka bleachers..oh well. So verona won but no offense guys...The band pretty much sucked today.
My cousins are over now for dinner and i am crazy tired so i guess thats it...

la di da...

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 21:25:24 GMT

Ok so yesterday we had the Kinnelon game...we lost =(. But it was a really good game and we played really good...good game girls. I have to say the fans are 100% awsome...Heart & Soul = joe vivona and dean. Then i came home showered and headed over to Dani's where we were having pizza and then going to the pep rally...it was the whole vball team at her house including coaches. We made up some pretty interesting nicknames for almost the whole team...we'll work on the rest during practice, haha. Then sorentino drove me, betcher, amanda, danielle, marissa, katie flannery, and i am having a mindblank right now and i cant remember who else was in the car. Now keep in mind that teachers arent allowed to drive students yet alone pile into the car, 3 people in the trunk and 6 people in the seats..one person the 3 people in norm seats lap (kinda confusing but whatever). So pep rally was pretty fun, BOYS SOCCER IS AMAZING!!! That was absolutely histericle. After the pep rally we started walking to Mal's and then Mrs. Bontempo picked us up but i had so much energy that i decided to walk. So at mal's we played some air hockey, pool, and then went into her house and hung out and listened to music. I came home and started to watch Sweet 16 but then i got really tired so i turned it off.

Today i woke up at like 8 and it was DOWNPOURING. Then i fell back asleep and woke up at 10:30. I watched EdTv, finished sweet 16, and then i started watching Final Destination.

Well i am going to go...

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 03:31:51 GMT

Ok so i havent really updated in awhile...the usual has happened, school, volleyball, homework, and then bed. We won our 2 games so far (even though both teams sucked) but still. KINNELON ON FRIDAY!!! GO, IT WILL BE A GOOD GAME. well anyway.

We dont have school tomorrow because of the Jewish holiday. Tonite i had the girls over and we watched 13 going on 30 which was pretty cute. Andrea fell asleep and was breathing heavily and allyson tripped over the black die bean-bag chair which was pretty funny. Thats all that really happened. I finally get to sleep in late so thats pretty exciting.

Thats all for now...

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 23:45:25 GMT

This is going to be a pretty long entry since i havent really updated in awhile:

Ok well i am kinda sorry about my last entry...i was just in one of those moods where every little thing pisses you off. Ok well anyway, on with the update. So Monday i didnt do anything...i sat around watching movies the whole day, enjoying my last day of summer. So we ordered pizza for dinner and then i just watched some more tv and straightened my hair...(exciting, i know). I tried to go to bed early but it didnt really work.

So tuesday morning i actually woke up pretty fine considering i havent gotten up that early since june. Is it just me or did it NOT feel like the first day of school. To me it felt like we just came back from a spring break or something. It was really weird. My classes are eh...i dont mind english, bio is awsome(cascone baby!!), accounting..well i dont really know about that class yet, gym is alright, lunch, math is hell...LANO =(, spanish..all i have to say is senor is funny as hell but a crappy teacher, and then of course i have to end the day off on a bad not, history with maher. So after school i had volleyball practice.

Yesterday we were supposed to have a scrimmage agains Mount St Dominic but of course they dont start school until next week and their athletic director forgot to tell them about it or something. So we just scrimmaged each other instead. Oh yea..i was about to enter Lanno's class room when the bell rang and so of course i got a detention....i was literally there for maybe 30 second and then she said i could go. So i came home after practice and did my homework...mainly math..=(.

Today i felt like CRAP. I have been getting sick and then when i woke up this morning it just hit me, my throat hurts and i have a cough. Well, school was ok, history is going to eat me alive and i cant drop because i am stupid and overrode...thats ok though, i can get help or something. After school we had practice. We did a run up sampson and sepcie smelt pot coming from the bushes (the spot where they all smoke trying to catch who it was. She wasnt very successful but oh well, it was funny watching her look. Then we just scrimmaged and stuff, it was fun. We have our first game tomorrow so go!! thanks..lol

Kind of off topic but:

Anyone here read the article in the observer yesterday about Josh that some woman wrote...it was terrible. She was all against people "making him out to be a hero" or whatever. She was like vigil's are for people who died of a diseaster not from "gambling with their lives" or something like that. WTF. Have some respect lady, i mean common it really doesnt matter how he died, he still went to our school, people were still really good friends with him. It shouldnt really matter how he died, he still died and he is still going to be missed no matter how it happened, weither he was risking his own life or someone else took away his life. I really dont think that woman should have written that article, and she wanted to speak at the vigil..oh thats a good idea, while everyone is talking about how good he was you go up there and basically say he wasnt good because he died from drugs....Well i suggest reading it if you didnt.

Thats all for now..

wonderfull last night of summer...NOT

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 02:23:42 GMT

Well i really apreciate the fact that people cant just go along with the flow. Drama Drama Drama...I FUCKING HATE DRAMA. and i also hate the fact that when someone says oh i can have people over there is always that one person who doesnt want to go who gets a group of other people not to want to go. Then they go off and do their own thing and dont even bother calling you or anyone else even though they know the first plan fell through. It's not the first time that the one person has not really wanted to go somewhere and then we end up sitting home because of them...well thank god school starts in 2 days so i dont have to deal with what are we going to do tonite every fucking night. All i can say is we are sophmores in highschool, GROW THE FUCK UP and stop being a baby about certain things...that is not only aimed at one person. Well i am sorry but i am in a really bad mood right now because certain people really know how to piss me off. Well i am glad that i ended my summer on such a high note. Thanks once again...

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 22:55:45 GMT

Ok so on Friday night we had nothing to do so we went to the park. It was me, andrea, allyson, max, cody, brendan, and joe tobia. We just sat on bench and talked for awhile. Andrea was not the brightest person that night with some of her comments...i will save her some embarresment and i wont say what she said. The tennis ball that brendan and joe were playing with went in the pond and they looked like cavemen trying to get the ball out of the water. Then we went walking and went onto the dock...someone asked if we were allowed to be on the dock...well considering we hopped two fences that were locked to get onto the dock i would say so. So we just sat there for awhile talking and stuff. Then we were heading over to the playground when we met up with mike collins. We played tag on the playground but we took our shoes off because the ground there was fun/bouncy/weird. I have to give mike credit, when he was it he hopped over the slide thing and then crawled/ran under the bridge, he reminded me of the woman in the exorcist when she was possessed. Then we went on the swings for a little bit. We started walking up to brendan's when we ran into marco, nick, and mike b. Me and kei took a "short cut" to get to his house but everyone else didnt really get too far. When we popped out onto bloomfeild ave they were still by the park. Cody's mom drove me home.

Yesterday i went to the funeral. It was REALLY REALLY sad, but i mean what would you expect from a funeral. They had to play to two saddest songs though. Amazing Grace and some other song that i dont know the name to. It was very depressing seeing all his friends being the people who caried the casket. Ok well i dont feel like talking about it anymore so i am going to move on to another subject.

Last night i went to my aunt's house for dinner since my parents were going out. I was going to go to brendan's house but no girls were going so i just stayed there and kept jake occupied. He wanted to do some crayon maker and a puzzle so we did both.

Today i slept until 11:40 which was very nice. I watched Real World since it was like a marathon. Then i watched Cant Hardley Wait...PRESTON SCOTT IS ADORABLE. I absolutely love that movie. Ok so then my grandma wanted to take me and my sister out for dinner so we went to the pilgrim. Thats all for now i guess.

Catch Ya Later..

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 23:55:21 GMT

Today i had volleyball at 3:30...thats really it. Last night i stayed home. I was going to go to cody's house but i fell asleep..i went online at around 9ish and realized that i never told him i wasnt going...Oops. Its all good because someone there was online so i just told them. I watched Sex and the City..good show, i am going to have to watch it more often. Its REALLY funny.

Things like Josh's death always hit people hard because you know that people die from drugs and alcohol but you never think it can happen to someone you know or that it can even happen to you. I just hope that people wake up and smell the roses and stop doing drugs. I mean you think some poeple would get the hint when someone gets caught with drugs, yet alone when someone dies from drugs.

some poem..

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 22:18:08 GMT

Dont grieve for me now, for I'm free
I'm following the path God laid for me,
I took His hand when i herd him call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day,
to laugh, to love, to work or play,
tasks left undone must stay that way,
i found that place at the close of day
if my parting had left a void
then fill it with remembered joy,
as friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss.
ah yea, these things, i too, will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
i wish the sunshine of tomorrow
my life's been full, i savored much,
good friends, good times, a loved ones touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,
dont lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me,
God wanted me now, he set me free.

R.I.P-JR...you have been set free and you are now in a better place.

vigil ceremony in memory of josh rappaport...loved but never forgotten

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 04:00:39 GMT

ok well today we didnt have practice but all teams met for a meeting and then they went into the caf. for a little talk. Then you could go to certain rooms to talk with the couslers. The volleyball team met in sepcies room for our uniforms and to discuss our t-shirts and stuff that we want to order. So we were there until 11.

Tonite was the candel vigil for josh..it was one of the most depressing things i have ever witnessed or gone through. I tried holding back the tears but i couldnt do it for too long. Seeing friends and parents and everyone crying and listening to his close friends talk about how great of a person he is was too hard to handle. It finally has hit me that he is gone. I dont want to believe it but i have to. Seeing his really close friends cry was really tough to deal with. I feel very bad for those who are suffering majorly from this. I am pretty damn upset and i only talked to him during gym and at yg, i cant imagin how is friends and family feel. I send my deepest condolences to his close friends and his family.

We went to brendan's house afterwards and basically talked about this. Some poeple went to on the run but i stayed back with a few people and we just kept talking about it. I was pretty out of it the whole night. When things like this happen it makes your mind wonder, but the thing is it keeps wondering onto bad memories.

Once again I send my deepest condolences to his close friends and family. These are the times where we need to pull together and show the world how strong we are..i am here for anyone who needs anything. Be strong.

Jackie

Josh-loved but never forgotten...RIP.

R.I.P <3

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 22:46:09 GMT

A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend, a mother lost her son but this ode will never end R.I.P. Never Forgotten.....

Why does it feel when someone you know dies you die along with them? We weren't the best of friends..i barely knew him, but we went to school together and we had some classes together. We talked at Youth Group almost every monday night and now I will never see him again. He was only 16. He hadn't even started his junior year of high school and now he is gone...forever...and I feel as if a piece of me has died with him and yet there is absolutely nothing I can do. So, I'm left here to think...to think of how unfair it is that he was taken from this world much to early. It just doesn't make sense at all anymore. I dont want to except the fact that he is gone.

Well if anyone needs someone to talk to my door is always open <3.

God bless his soul and the souls of his family and friends.

R.I.P

And remember that he is in a better place looking down on us as we speek..
Rest in Peace...

mall..

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 04:05:09 GMT

Ok, tonite we were going to go to TGIF's but it was too crowded so we walked over to the mall and went to the food court. While we were there we saw Dani,alyssa byrne,and weinglass. We talked with them until they basically kicked us out. Then we went to allyson's house. We played break the ice and i did some really weird puzzle. It was cool, kept me occupied. We watched some friends also...good show. My mom picked me up at like 11:15 and drove some people home. I showed off my wonderfull singing voice...haha andrea. Well i am going to go to bed soon so good night.

doubles....

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 21:53:49 GMT

So last night we went to the mall and then back to andrea's house. When we pulled up to her house tom had like 20something people there (at least 20). They were outside so we just went inside. I left at 11 with kerry.

Today we had our first day of doubles. The first half we did stations but for 1 minute instead of 30 seconds and we did them twice. Today was harder then the rest of the days. Then we had to practice diving on the ground. I was partnered up with kate betcher which was pretty funny. Then we had to practice diving and rolling only we did it on the mat.....then they took the mat away..=(. Oh well. At 12 i got subway with amanda and katie and sherilyn got a bagel. Joelle, gina, danielle, and katie flannery also got subway. We went back to the gym and ate our lunch there. Then we went over our rotations and scrimmaged a little. Its forming into real practices now. I got a ride home from kelly and then showered and took a little nap. So i dont have practice until monday and i am going to enjoy sleeping in...

Now i am trying to find out what we are doing tonite and if i am even allowed to go out. I dont understand why i wouldnt be allowed to but apparently my mom has a decent reason but she doesnt feel like sharing with me why....

more tryouts...

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 18:13:54 GMT

ok so yesterday we had another tryout. I couldnt do that much in the begining because of my shoulder since we were concentrating on upper body. So me and meg snyder both sat out the second time around and iced our shoulders..she has tendinides..i dont know how to spell that. So then we split up into groups...hitters, passers, and setters. I was in the passing group because too many people wanted to hit. Ok, after the tryout my aunt picked me and laura up from the pool since my mom and sister were looking at a college. I went to the pool with andrea, jack, brendan, cody,steph ponz and steph g. We played texas holdem and i would have made i think 3.and something cents if we didnt have to give the money back to steph. Mrs. Mason picked us up and jack was sitting on steph's lap and we were saying how it would suck if we opened the window while she was turning and so he stuck his head out the window and his hat flew off. Two cars almost ran it over...i dont think i have ever seen jack run so fast. So then we went to brendan's at 8. It was me, andrea, allyson, mal, caitlin, jack, matt, joe tobia, and brendan obviously...and his brother. We walked to On the Run and then i played brendan's brother in ping pong and i won by 2 points...it was like 26-24 or something. Then i played matt until his mom came. I got a ride home from her, came home and then went to bed at around 11:30.

This morning i woke up at around 8, got ready, and then went to volleyball. Today they made cuts..i think i am on varsity(since i was last year) but i dont know yet because she didnt talk to me yet..there are like 4 of us who know we are on A team but we dont know which one. So after practice i showered and had some lunch. Then i took a little 30 minute nap and now i am talking to some people online and listening to music....

Thats all...Bye

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 21:03:18 GMT

So, Sunday my water heater broke so my dad woke me up at 8:45 and told me to go to 9:00 mass so that i could help him when i got home. We went to Home Depot(one word or 2??) and while we were there i actually played with a roll of duct tape for literally 45 minutes throwing it up and seeing how i high i could get it since the ceiling there is really high. So then when my dad was pushing the cart thing with the water heater on it he started to ride it in the parking lot and then told me how when he was younger they would push each other down hills in shopping carts but when they crashed it would hurt....yea so then while my dad was talking to some man he knew i started riding on it and spinning in circles. When i got home i went to the pool with jack and andrea. We talked with laura and kerry mainly the whole time...me and jack swam a little. Then we decided we were going to go to soda pop shop so we went there at 8. Tom picked me, kerry, and laura up( i think, i know there were 2 other people in the car besides me andrea and tom but i cant remember who) and drove us there. After that we went back to Jack's house and played some cards, and then went for a walk but ended up standing in the park..Then the night got a little confusing and somehow tom ended up picking me jack andrea and steph up and driving us home. I came home, went online and then went to bed.

Yesterday was the first day of volleyball tryouts. They weren't bad at all...they were actually kinda easy. So then i came home and took a shower only to end up in the verona pool. Jack picked me up at like 2:45ish and we were meeting steph and cody there. So we got there and went in the pool and hung out in the diving well with steph. We tought jack how to dive!!! And steph was attempting to flip off the low dive without running or jumping...as you can guess she never succeded. I DID A FLIP OFF THE HIGH DIVE!!!! I am pretty proud of that...i have kind of always wanted to and then i was just like screw jack if you dive i will flip off the high dive..so i did and then he dove. We went to cody's house last night...i wasnt going to go because i was really tired but once i started walking around my house i was fine. So i went to cody's at like 8:15 and picked andrea and allyson up. We went to f.n.brown because people wanted to go for a walk. My mom came at 10:30 because of tryouts this morning

Today-tryouts were harder today because we were concentrating on our legs. First we had to run 3 "suicides" in the morning because 3 people were late..they arent real suicided because we use the lines on the volleyball court. Then we did the circuit training...a bunch of leg workouts today. Then we did some drills and at the end of practice we had to run 6 suicides...my thighs are so sore. I was supposed to babysit at 12:30 but my sister did and i went and relieved her at 2:30 so she could get ready for soccer. I was only there for 1 hour but hey thats 10 bucks..plus only 1 kid was there and he got there at 3. I fell asleep before i babysat.

I am going to go watch some tv....

some stupid survey that i did because i was bored....

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 17:08:15 GMT

[spell your first name backwards]- enileuqcaj
[age]- 15
[where do you live] - Verona, NJ
[four words that sum you up]- random, crazy, weirddd =) & nice
[wallet]- a blue roxy one
[hairbrush] - black!
[jewelry worn daily] - neclace [pillow cover] - blue
[coffee cup] - i dont have one
[shoes] - i have like 5 pairs, my lilu's or nikes
[cologne/perfume] - i take anything that my sister has
[piercings] - ears
[clothes youre wearing now] - 2002 summer music shirt and ski club shorts

MIXED QUESTIONS:

[wishing] - why bother
[after this] - homework
[talking to] - andrea [eating] - nothing
[fetishes] - i hate other people's feet
[some of your fav. movies] - now and then and cant hardly wait...... there is more but i cant think of them
[somthing youre looking forward to in the upcomin months] - how about nothing
[last thing you ate] - kix cereal
[something youre hella afraid of] - loosing someone close to me
[three cities you wouldn't mind relocating to]- cities..hm..never thought about that
[some of your fav. foods] - pizza
[something you wish you could understand better] - love and people
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time] - more then he knows..

DO YOU...:

[like candles] - yess
[like incense] - i dont have any?
[believe in love] - unfortunately
[believe in soulmates] - yeahh...
[believe in love at first sight] - onceee again, yeah
[believe in forgiveness] - depends
[want to get married] - if i find the right person
[want to have kids] - yea
[believe that you know the person that youll marry at this point in time] - nope

IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU:

[cried] - yeah
[bought sumthin] - yes
[gotten sick] - no
[sang] - yes
[eaten] - yes
[been kissed] - nope
[felt stupid] - yes
[wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't] - yes
[met someone new] - nope
[moved on] - will i ever
[talked to an ex] - yeah
[missed an ex] - yeah
[talked to someone you have a crush on] - errr yeah
[had a serious talk] - yeah
[missed someone] - uuuuuuumhmmm
[hugged someone] - yea
[fought with your parents] - nope
[dreamt about someone you cant be with]- dreams suck

SOCIAL LIFE:

[best girl friend(s)] - steph and kerry
[best guy friend(s)]- brendan
[boyfriend/girlfriend] - nope
[if none, current dating partner] - none.
[hobbies] - um..sports, music, the usual
[are you the center of attention or wallflower] - well i'm not center of attention but i am def not a wallflower
[car you drive] - dont drive
[would you rather be with friends or on a date] - um, i d k
[job] - dont have one...i am lifegaurding next year!
[attend church] - yes
[like being around people] - most of the time

WHO...:

[have you known the longest] - kerry and laura
[do you argue with the most] - kerry..haha
[do you always get along with people] - pretty much
[who is the most trustworthy] - all of them,
[who makes you laugh the most] - laura..hehe
[who is the nicest girl(s)] - thats tough to answer :)
[who is the nicest guy(s)] - tough to answer also =)
[who has the coolest parent(s)] - hm...thats a good question
[who has the coolest sibling(s)] - i'd say brendan since we hang out with his brother when we are at his house
[who is the most blunt] - umm?
[is the smartest] - KERRY

PERSONAL:

[who is your role model] - dont really have one
[ever liked someone you had no chance with] - yeah
[ever lied to your best friend] - maybe once or twice, nothing big or bad though
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you] - it will come with time
[cried over the opposite sex] - unfortunately
[have a certain "type" of person you go after] - nah, not really
[rather be dumper or dumped] - neither, they both suck
[rather have a relationship or "hook-up"] - relationship
[what is your fav. part of your emotional being] - i can work around my emotions...be happy and sad at the same time
[are you happy with yourself] -pretty much, yea
[are you happy with your life] - once again...pretty much, yea
[if you could change one thing what would it be] - i dont know actually

well now that i wasted some time i think its time to do summer work.....